Hi, I’m, Kate, Founder of Bewitching Content. Books are my everything.
Since I was three, books have whispered the world’s secrets to my curious heart.
And as a child with a reality to escape, storytelling came easily. But, storybook heroines never looked like me. Or had a life like mine. I loved writing in secret, but I was afraid to reveal my stories. I felt ashamed of my small life. My otherness.
Until one day, I got up the guts to pour my heart into a senior year essay. My English teacher took me aside and accused me of plagiarism. To him, I was unworthy and talentless. I shrank under the weight of his opinions.
And everyone else’s expectations.
In adulthood, I lost my way. Bridging the gap between who I thought I should be and people’s expectations split me in two. I tried to write, but failed. I was voiceless. I limped along in life, held together with little more than duct tape and bandages, never really fitting in or feeling like I was in the right place. So, I did what any other mature adult would do when faced with an existential crisis. I ran. To Saudi Arabia, as far away as I could go at the time. And when the agony bubbled up, I ran again. To an oil company on the coast. Juggling between cities in the Middle East, I found myself surrounded by runaway crazies. It took seven years for me to realize I was one of them…..
…..Then, I went to China, where things took a turn for the worst. There’s nothing that forces you to get real about who you are then trying to bring a child into the world. My journey to motherhood forced me to view my childhood differently. To examine my trauma, and escape it, when before I only escaped myself. It took a lot of work, but I finally realized I couldn’t escape that little girl inside. A little girl that checked out stack after stack of library books and stayed up late reading under the covers in the dark with a flashlight. The little girl with a big imagination, who dreamed of that far away place called freedom. The little girl that needed desperately to be heard, understood, and loved.